Light Up Your Dreams

Breathless

My heart beat harder with every step

Each breath came faster than the last

A translucent shadow on the ground

What whispers has so many depths

The clouds shift slowly in the sky

I run to feel the wind flow through me

Break the quiet with streetcars

Brake lights, headlights dance on by

Full of thoughts and anticipation

Still yet to figure out or let it be

I smile but yet shed some tears

Ponderous and gratified of what may come

I am letting go while holding on

Reaping in the dreams that I see

Coming alive, enveloped in illustrations

Catching air to come to life, never gone

No Darkness

Any quotes or sayings are original work and words of mine!

Today, Yesterday

Today is Tomorrow, Yesterday was Today

Make any sense?
Maybe not yet...but it will.

We live our future with our past, how much we carry of that into our future is the conundrum.  What part do we need to keep to help us be progressive and thrive later?  Obviously, we can't forget the past...some parts we do (more so with others that have extreme case of selective memory or just horrible memory, don't worry, I don't judge!) because it's heavy and makes it so hard for us to just take a step forward, one step at a time.

So many of us cannot do this. We carry the negative, don't get me wrong.  Edgar Allan Poe, look at his writing, some of the most depressingly beautiful, and disturbing writing out there.  His work would not be nightmare of the higher percentage of students having to be assigned to read his work. Could he have written that way if he was an extremely happy guy? No. Does it mean he was extremely dark and mentally anguished at all times? Most likely!  Although, he had to have good moments too. Has anyone ever asked him this question, " Are your writing inspired of things in your past? Or of what you foresee to feel in the future? "?

I would love to know that answer.

We forget how much dexterity we have to cope, the strength we have, the need to succeed in us. Nobody wants to fail. At anything. Ever.  It happens, is it really failing? Or is it the mere fact it was not meant to be and time to find another route to try, or that we should flip the turn signal on and make a right turn.  How many of you are guilty of making a U-turn instead? Causing yourself to go right back into the same situation, over and over again.  Only to beat yourself up for allowing to go down that road again?  How many U-turns do you need to make in order to realize you must put the "forever in construction" sign up next time, and go toward "detour, take right" sign?

I'm guilty of U-turns, be first to admit it.  I don't do it for the pleasure of repeating mistakes or rehashing it all over again.  I do it because it is for the love I have for people, or not being able to accept that there isn't a way to turn things around...could be a job, project, trip, or little tasks.

Some decisions you must make will be hard, hurtful, confusing, angry ones.  For yesterday, today, and many, many tomorrows.  In time...the hurt, anger, and confusion will fade because it was the appropriate decision for that situation.  Which makes for better tomorrows.  Other decisions, give you happiness, no regrets, glad you stuck it out, after all... today.  Because tomorrow you will see you made the right turn and stayed pure to your heart and it turned out OK.

Today, I have thought about yesterday.  Today, I am thinking about tomorrow.  What does tomorrow bring? What can I carry from yesterday that will help me tomorrow? I know I have many yesterdays I would love to be able to tuck away in a box forever and forget about them.  Then there are those yesterdays that I want to cherish forever and never forget every moment of them.  I will carry those yesterdays with me today, and keep them tomorrow.  Yes, that is my decision.  Not always easy to do, but it is up to you how you make today, that will determine how tomorrow will be.

Unknown Moon Girl 2015

Dancing in the Clouds

Cloudsss....

Remember as a kid you would lie down outside and stare at the clouds? If you watched long enough, you would see the direction it was flowing and the different shapes it was forming. Eventually, those shapes would look familiar turning into animals, objects, even people. That was our minds at its best, no harm in imagination, creativity, or thoughts. 

I have always been fascinated with clouds, in awe when on an airplane and flying above billows of clouds.  I think this was what heaven was all about, it's beautiful. I expect to catch angels flying around eventually.  Clouds are moods to me, almost lyrical in a sense. An orchestra that changes along with the feelings and emotions.  Dark and stormy, bright and reflective. Oh, those times when the sun peeks through and makes rays of lights are gems to me. At times clouds are my moods for me, like a sponge absorbing what I didn't want to feel until they soak up so much it must rain and release.  As you get older there are more rules, you have to be more careful of what you say, act, and wish for.  We are conditioned as we mature what is offensive, politically correct, and impolite. How we go about our ways with following these rules obviously are different. 

On a clear day with not a cloud in sight I would search for even just a tiny sprout somewhere.  If you are not familiar with the Mexican worry dolls, each doll represents a day of the week where you would put your worries to them and tuck them in a box, to make what concerned you go away because they did the worrying for you. Clouds were and still are in a sense, my worry dolls.  Sounds a bit odd and poetic but that's the kind of person I am. 

I confine myself often not for fear of judgement of others but more so the fear of being misjudged or misunderstood. I am strong-minded, opinionated with an open mind, be the first to rush to aid someone if I am there, and always up to learning a new thing about myself or others. What life throws at me, I am ready to bat or catch, I may strike out a few times til I get it right. But as long as I can see the the little cloud up there, even if I have to look at one on the internet or phone, I know it will be all right. What calms you? If you haven't found it yet, I will lend you my clouds.