Ever feel like you have lived a hundred years? Well, don't... unless you have talked to someone that is a hundred and you can compare notes! I'm guessing, if you tell a person that is a hundred, that you feel a hundred, they will take their arthritis hands and choke you! Believe me, arthritis can give some people killer grip!
I at times feel a hundred. I'm sure you can relate. You wake up, you just aren't feeling the day, you can't get into the rhythm of things, everything seems to be a misstep, off, or a stone you are trying to skip over the waters and it just sinks. Yeah, I figured, you know exactly what I mean. When these days are happening upon me (and they happen upon me much too frequently than I'd like to admit), I feel like I am being tested for a reason. Sometimes at the end of those days, I am disappointed because I expected a random gold star sticker to come out of nowhere, for getting through the day!
I know, I shouldn't look for that gold star sticker as if it will be handed to me. I need to make my own gold star! There is a reason why you and I have these days, and there is a lesson to be learned from them. It's whether we allow ourselves to learn from them, or just brush it off as just another day that makes it or breaks it. Brushing it off, causes many more days in our lives that will be just like those days, on top of the many other days that will be just as frustrating but in different ways.
I can checklist a day if I really look into it and figure out why I had it. Break the chains of the vicious cycle. I don't have to feel like that hamster running in the wheel, not going anywhere and ending up in the exact same place. I try my best to figure out why I had such a strange day, is there an obvious pattern and if so, what to do to stop it so I don't scream in my pillow over it. I've gotten better! It doesn't take 20 similar occurrences to knock some sense into me. I can usually see it by the second time and do the "Whoa, Nelly!" and do the "POW POW POW" putting a cap on that bad ass. Man, what a rush when I recognize and take action! Yeah, sometimes just reaching for that pint of Ben and Jerry's and watching sappy movies seems much simpler than attacking the 'demons'. But it is much easier to attack the demons when they are not budging from the lactose coma I would have put it through. Then I will have that pint of icecream...that's my gold star!
Lighthearted but true!!
I do not know my neighbors except for one. And the only reason why I know him is because we knew each other years ago before we became neighbors. Do you know your neighbors? Could you actually tell me what the neighbor 2 houses down first and last name is? That's what I thought. Remember the good ole days when the neighbors were friendly?
Now we all stare at each other with doe eyes. We just figure no one is staying in one place, so why bother getting to know each other when someone will move away! And we keep finding excuses year after year, and the rare occasions where we stay in the same place for 10 years or more...you think we would know our neighbors then. NOPE! Unless you accidentally run over their cat, or they are hoping to borrow that killer power saw they eyeballed when you were doing woodwork in the garage, you won't know your neighbors. And if you do, you secretly wished they would mind their own business. I actually couldn't get to know mine. Because the house next to me on the right and the 3 houses to my left were all empty. No houses in front of me because it's all empty property for a future park.
In fact, not once has anyone came over to welcome me to the neighborhood in all the places I moved to! No basket of homemade cookies or fresh bread. Heck, a store bought loaf of Wonder Bread would have made me happy! I have gone and introduced myself to my neighbors, just so they knew I was a person. I have wondered if they heard blood curdling screams from my house if they would even respond? Or if they have the policy of "What goes on behind closed doors isn't our business, even if it means some crazy mo fo is chopping up the people in there, it ain't our business!"
Neighbors sure are not what they once were. Someone is knocking on the door...I hope it isn't the darn neighbor! LOL
